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  10 minutes later I’m hauling ass in the dock where I told Cameron to meet me. His mouth drops open as I stand up and wave to him as I slide the boat in close so he can get in! “This your boat Cruz?” he says all blown away “YUP” I chirp “ this here is Beauty and we are going to ride hard and fast today Cameron are you ready?” his eyes are bugged out of his head and his mouth is hung open with drool I believe haha nice to see because now he is seeing me standing there. “GET IN CAMERON I WANNA RIDE” all the while I am aware I am chewing on my bottom lip, he climbs in and before he can sit down I pull the throttle and the boat hums to life faster than it should but I giggle and he is all smiles. Damn he is too gorgeous; he has everything a dream guy needs including his all too cute country farmer tan! And his bright yellow swim trunks are a great contrast to my orange, which sparks my first move to relax him. I am going to sit on him to show him this contrast. Ah the dangerous glint in my eyes I know he can see it, hell I feel it again right between my thighs!

  Deep in the ocean surrounded by nothing but beautiful clear water and a jet ski every once in a while, I kill the motor slowly rising to get the cooler and my bag out of the hidden compartment, Spread my towel out bending over slowly to make sure Cameron takes notice. I lean around twisting the way a body shouldn’t be able to, hold up the sunscreen “Rub me down?” Oh Cameron your eyes are seriously going to pop out of your head silly boy. I lay out on the towel stomach down, he slowly starts to cover me in sunscreen and I let out a little whimper between the electrical current in his touch and the warm sun I feel fabulous. I untie the back of my top so he gets everywhere, and he stops hands still spread wide across my back. Looking over my shoulder I see he is just staring at my back “you ok Cam? It’s just a back babe finish up!” he starts back and like a flash of lighting I flip over. The look on his face is PRICELESS.A hand full of CHEST and Yup he is SPRUNG! “Chop Chop now I need to get some sun” I say as seductive as I can, and pushing him away. He finishes up and sits back not knowing what to do now. I hear the crooning of Marvin Gaye on the radio softly and ask Cameron to turn it up a little. AS I lay body reaching for the sun on my towel with Marvin screaming lets get it on I can only image the self control Cameron has right now. I lift my head and cock it to the side he is sitting back in the seat shirt off shades on with his arms stretched out over the back of the seat just watching me. Here is my chance. Up I pounce, kicking my legs over the towel and dropping them to the floor, I stand and slowly stride over to him lowering myself to straddle his lap stomach to stomach. Looking into his eyes I can’t help but think how easily I could get lost in them they are so beautiful the kind of green that you just don’t see. He is so innocent by every standard.. You just don’t see that in guys his age. I adjust myself on him spreading my thighs wide and doing a soft wiggle then I lean back just a little “Cameron do you see how fabulous your yellow shorts look against my tangy orange suit? it’s almost as if we planned it..” I let a giggle escape and with the lean I have going on my bottoms are the issue he wants to discuss right now. He is biting his lip as if to keep from ravaging my body here and now. After a few more playful wiggles I lean up wrap my arms around his neck and drop my eyes I know by his gasp they have gone hazy. “Now Cameron I would be lying if I said I wasn’t interested in you, so I have a proposition, I don’t do this normally but sometimes there is the exception. And you are absolutely the exception in my world right now!” he takes a deep breathe and I continue, poor guy is holding on by a thread I want to demand him drop his pants and take me from behind but the words won’t come out. I go with the only thing my mind seems to be able to concentrate on “I have to attend a function tonight, it’s a charity event that my parents funded and I have to show up in support of them, and being Miss Miami Socialite that I am I have no options. I would really like for you to go with and make it more bearable.” A smile that reached his ears surfaced and his cheeks are crimson haha to cute “Miss Cruz I would very much like to be your date tonight” “OMG (I scream) Not a date Cameron arm candy honey ARM CANDY I don’t date” he actually cringed and it kind of stung my heart I actually hurt his feelings, what is wrong with me. “Awww Cameron I didn’t mean to scream I just have never opened myself up like that, the proposition I have placed with you means no strings attached, but if all goes well tonight then maybe I could pencil in a lunch date next week?” with a small wink I get up grab my top place it back around me asking him to tie me in. “We gotta get back so I can get ready” I see him tense up “What is it now Cameron, you gotta go potty?” with a weak voice he answers me “Miss Cruz I don’t live the life style you live and well I am here only on vacation all I really have are beach clothes and a few jeans” What the hell is up with the formal MISS this and MISS that? She shoots him an award winning I GOT THIS smile & turns the engine over speeding off toward the dock. Jimmy Buffett screeching along.. yea my music mix is weird but it’s me what can I say. “Shoot me an email right now, send your address and clothes size. I will have my friend Bernard drop by in 1 hour to fit you to match my dress” I snatch a business card out of my adorable cheetah ( yea we all have a little Snooki in us) metal card holder in my bag hand it to him and before he can say anything I pull away. I didn’t look back I knew he was looking they always do. One thing I can’t figure out is why when I snap at him like I would anyone else it actually upsets me to be treating him so poorly.

  An hour later I step out of the shower and run my hand across my digital closet panel. I’ve already decided on the yellow dress, picking it because the color would remind him of his trunks from earlier and then of me color matching my swim wear while sitting on top of him w/ my perfect perky real “C” cups staring at him. Now to get all DONE up for the crowd, my life is such a drag I’d rather go in yoga pants and a cut up sweat shirt. Ha the field day they would with me on yahoo if I did. “Valeria I am ready to do my hair.. Please hurry” I can’t help but feel stunning when I see myself in the mirror. The beautiful canary yellow floor length empire waist satin dress is to die for, not sure if I love the plunging front and back held together only by tiny diamond chains or the teardrop diamond waist band more. Valeria has done the work of a true genius with my hair, long curls heavy with a small swipe to the side. I look… Like a Greek goddess Aphrodite herself is cringing in her skin I just know it. I put on a big talk around people but they just don’t understand what’s in my heart. I’m cold and shut down and in total control on the outside and inside my heart has torn holes all in it the sun has burned out, only cricket’s chirp. I am utterly alone and totally unloved. Most people will never know the pain in a lifetime I have endured in just a few short years. But you will always be judged by your peers it’s just human nature. well back in action I have to get this over with… “Valeria bring me the yellow jimmy choo t strap peek-a-boos please”.

  My car pulls up outside the hotel where Cameron and his buddies are staying, I step out to greet him and of course every guy he knows is there to prove he was lying about his dinner plans with me. “Hello Cameron, you look amazing tonight.” Him and his entourage all stand eyes bugged out and tongues on the ground. This dress has that effect since the slit in it, is waist high and the v cut in it goes completely to my waist line. Cameron makes a groaning rumbling noise deep in his throat and lets out “Miss Cruz that is your color, you look like a princess” psht I can’t help but give a dirty little chuckle and my eyes hit each of his friends one at a time and when I reach Cameron all I can say is “Babe in this life I am THE queen!” I grab his hands and reach up to plant a sweet kiss on his lips, as I turn I make sure his hand slide into place cupping my backside. As we turn and walk back to the white stretched limo I hear all the frat boys hoots and hollers and a few high fives. I’ve just turned Cameron into a god in their eyes.

  “Cameron when we get to this event there are a few rules you must follow. 1. Don’t stop smiling. 2. When they take a photo turn your body towards me and dip your head just a tad and SMILE.3. When someone ask who you are you
r to let me answer just smile DO NOT speak to any other females unless I say so 4.don’t leave my side without asking and do it while smiling 5.don’t drink to much and when the night is over your going to get in my limo and ride home with me like a good little boy. “Gus can you turn it up I love this song” throwing back the last swig of red stuff in my cup and I start to sway my hips and smile while belting out “I’m bringing sexy back”. Cameron whispers and I barely hear him “Oh girl you are the epitome of sexy” And the growl from his chest sets me on fire. Again I find myself barely holding on; I just want to run my hand between his legs. I smile really big and know tonight is the night! “Ready or not Cameron here we go” stepping out of the limo everything goes into slow motion, we are met by crazy camera flashes and hear “Miss Cruz” everywhere. We stop and take a few easy shots for them and off we go into the amazing Ritz where my function is being held. The night runs smooth for the most part. About 20 minutes into making rounds I hear all to close to me “ Well Well Miss ALEXA what do we have here rawr” Before I know it I have jerked Cameron almost on my hip with a fierce snarl on my mouth and a bitch you will die stare I turn on my heels” Corrine Janessa Fuckin Morgan you so much as bat your trashy ass nasty eye lashes at him I will peel your fuckin eyes out with a scorching spoon, you gold digging wanna be rich bitch whore now step the fuck back tramp” and I snatched Cameron so hard when I walked off he let a poor puppy whimper. “Who was that” he cries out once we are far away from her. “One day I may explain it but here and now is neither the time nor place, just trust me Cameron you want nothing to do with her or her people.” Poor Cameron he is so in over his head, why did I spaz so fast gesh wow I might need to phone a friend, by friend I mean crazy Dr. Alpine, my controlling issues are pushing the extreme with this kid. “Well Miss Cruz I should let you know had she batted her nasty eye lashes at me I would not have noticed, I cant seem to take my eyes off you tonight, your breath taking”he says while running his finger down my bare arm. I let out a grade school laugh and we slipped off again into blissful dream walking, shaking hands, and taking photos. We made it through a lavish (very hands on under the table) dinner without any issues which I was grateful. Corinne actually stayed away I really didn’t want to get any blood on this dress it’s a brand new design! As we were leaving “La’sette darling are you really going to leave without saying hello? Surely not, your mother taught you better than that.” Uhhh seriously I just want to leave I have things to do here people, I plaster a stupid life is grand smile on my face turn around and squeal “Mrs. Georgina I didn’t see you for goodness sakes you look fantastic, Cameron this is Mrs. Georgina she is umm was my legal guardian and still is a vital piece of my empire” She shook Cameron’s hand and they spoke for a moment and like that she whisked away. Thank you Jesus she was gone and we didn’t even play the 100 question game. “Ok Cameron I have been here long enough, you ready to go? I sure hope so tonight’s about to kick in. Gus to the home pad please sir, and do take your time” I flip through my I pod skimming the songs find the playlist I want and click it on low… & up the privacy glass goes, we are riding for a few with some extremely provocative tunes playing. “Cameron I want to talk with you about some things, I am very interested in you well most of you. You’re easy on the eyes, sweet to hear, and you seem to be very obedient. I would like for you to stay the night with me at my home. And I would like you to give me full permission to do as I please with you in my own home.” Cameron has a million things running through his head I can see it all over his face & there’s a hint of fear to. “What kind of things Lexi?” it was the first time he hadn’t called me Miss Cruz my heart skipped a beat, well what’s left of my heart did. “I want to first rip all your clothes off and tie you up blind folded and well then there are numerous things I want to do it may take a few hours.” Without hesitation Cameron yips out “YES I GIVE YOU FULL PERMISSION” boy if he isn’t a natural born sub gesh. “ Good that’s what I wanted to hear” my cell is buzzing I look at the screen and of course it’s a text from :

  Maggie – are you with Cameron?

  Lexi (seriously?)-yes mom I am is there a problem?

  Maggie- omg they already plastered ya’lls photo is all over the place I just got a hit when I checked it BAM ya’lls faces are everywhere “THE IT COUPLE”

  Lexi-(uhhh people are so extreme)-Maggie calm down we are just friends he escorted me tonight to a charity function that’s it!

  Nothing texted back so I click the Google app and see the pics and all the titles “mystery boy toy” “the future ex- Mr. Cruz” “Billionaire daughter of the belated Mrs. Abigail Cruz finally lands her man” the photos were great we were like salt and pepper beside one another a great contrast, he was the opposite of me in every way. Turning the phone so he could see it I noticed he had one hell of a grin on his face “What’s got you cheesy Cameron?”

  And his response is.. “YAHOO OMG SITE, They have us already divorced and we aren’t even dating! I’m FAMOUS” I can’t help but giggle at how excited he looks. It’s actually adorable and I find myself thinking, I could look at his face forever. He has the best dirty blonde hair I’ve ever seen, his eyes are like emeralds, and man there has always been something about a guy taller than me with toned legs and arms. He has to use his upper body strength at work.. HAS TO! “ Well Cameron if all goes well tonight & you enjoy me as much as I do you, I think you had better get used to seeing yourself online because I will take you out a good bit” and now my smile is goofy and from ear to ear.. Aw he is blushing how cute is that. “Here we are, my haunted house on the hill” Cameron jerks around “HAUNTED” omg does he take everything so LITERAL. “Not really HAUNTED but you know it gets weird sometimes. I mean I am pretty much the only one here. Gus stays down in the boat house loft and Valeria stays in an apartment over the garage. I like my privacy but it does get lonely and yes even creepy” Now his expression seems lost and sad. “Lexi why do you stay to yourself? I mean your amazing and fun from what I can tell, its gotta be your choice right? Surely you have people who want to be around you all the time.” Boy this is a tough one, one I would never answer usually but here goes “People tend to like my money more than me, or think I am bossy. They forget before I had Abigail’s Company dropped in my lap that I had dreams of my own and a brain to. I didn’t want her life I wanted my own. But that all came to a stop when (I trial off lost at the memory of my parents) she was no longer hear to sign those stupid contracts & be pretty in the spot light. Now my dreams are on hold, well actually on a rack in my closet to be honest. I wanted to be a designer Cameron. I wanted to make clothes for the stars and I wanted my designs to be the ones when someone walked out, they are head jerking and mouth dropping and everyone knew it was a Lexi Cruz Design. But life goes on, no more dreaming for me, just hardcore reality. My dreams were all lost and broken. So excuse me if I am BOSSY I just consider myself intelligent where others see me as Mommy’s little girl lost broken and blowing all their money.” Sigh, “ and actually the company is doing better now than it has in the last 15 years, Georgina is blown away at how smooth things are running but I asked her to keep it hush it’s no one’s business how I run my business!” Shit I just told Cameron my life story haha nice one Lexi now he for sure thinks you’ve lost your damn marbles! “Ok enough on the history lesson. Out of the car and in the house move it!” we walk out and Gus takes the limo around back to park it. I really should invest in a hot pink limo that would make headlines. About half way up the 10,000 steps to the front door Cameron takes off running and laughing… “ I feel like Rocky on these steps” I can’t help but bust out “ YO ANDRIANN!” that gets a full on belly laugh from Cameron and before I know it he has ran back to me and has me up in his arms carrying me up the steps. He really is kind of sweet and strong to be honest. Maybe I should be nice to this one. It’s not my norm but neither is he. At the top of the steps he sets me down so I can punch in the code to open the door. The house is pretty much the same as my mom left it minus the colo
r change of course. Beautiful art lines the walls, vases full of great smelling flowers which Valeria tends to daily, and my house smells like waffles. Yes waffles I love the mommies cooking my favorite on Sunday morning smell. And its then I let a small tear run down my cheek, I miss her so much, quickly wiping it away before Cameron can see it of course. “Well kitchens that way fix you something, I am going to change and I will be back down for a snack as well. Then the fun begins “I shoot up the stairs to my room to find that outfit to drive him wild. I find a stunning floor length silk V-neck gown in amazing lavender with a matching robe I slide it own and hang my LEXI CRUZ DESIGN back where it belongs. Now I want to cry. Every time I change out of my designs I feel lost. They always ask “Who are you wearing tonight Miss Cruz?” and from me it’s the same ole response.” Oh this old thing was just hanging in the closet” I don’t need reporters hounding me about fashion. I stand hidden in the shadows off the back stair case watching Cameron as he digs around looking for food. It’s not hard really I have a heavy supply of junk food. He goes for the covered cake pan, I decide its time to make my presence known. He turns slowly to not drop the pan but when his eyes see my feet I watch him slowly work his eyes upwards. He almost falters and lets the pan go but catches it just in time. “ Gesh Lexi I thought the dress was amazing but now your almost see through , wow your just beautiful in everything aren’t you” grabbing 2 forks and 2 glasses I never even look at him, but I know his eyes haven’t left me I can feel them burning into me at the hips. I slowly swish across the floor towards the fridge and grab the milk making it a point to bend further than I need to. “Cameron, do you like the cake? I actually made that myself it’s a family recipe.” He can’t say anything because his mouth is FULL of cake I burst out laughing “imma take that as a good sign! Eat up” once we have the cake eaten and our milk drank we realize we’ve been sitting at the breakfast bar for hours. It’s early morning and I really am not in the mood to tie him up. He is so sweet I actually feel ashamed for thinking about it. I mean yes I like them tied to the bed post or strapped into the free fall harness I had made special just for me so they can’t move, with gags in so they can’t speak, and blindfolds on so they can’t see. I like taking a whip or cane and punishing them but Cameron is so different. It’s then for the first time I think maybe something is wrong with how I treat men. I mean bondage is one thing but doing it and loving the pain on their faces, seems a little morbid. I need to call the doc soon. I drag him to the great room still laughing and we sit for a bit and chat it up about the night. I look at him and I have to send him on before the evil inside reaches out for him “Cameron it’s getting late and I know I said I wanted to tie you up tonight but we’ve talked so long I’m actually very tired, I think Gus should take you home now.” I grab the house phone and buzz him “Gus, Cameron is going to need a ride back to his hotel, it doesn’t matter let him decide, I am sure he will enjoy that. Ok thanks Gus, see you tomorrow” I look at Cameron and he seems lost “so you decided I wasn’t good enough to stay the night with you?” I was actually caught off guard. “ No Cameron I would love for you to but for all the wrong reasons, so Gus will take you home and I will call you tomorrow and he is going to let you pick which car you want to go home in, garage is through the kitchen last door at the end of the hall. Good night” I kiss him on the cheek and go up the steps without ever looking back. I’m good at that I learned the hard way looking back makes you weak. Cameron gets up I hear his feet click on the floor as he passes the steps I believe he paused but I can’t be sure I may have just hoped he did. In the garage Gus is waiting by the key grid when Cameron enters “Mr. Cameron sir which car would you like to go home in. Miss Cruz says its gentleman’s choice tonight” Cameron stares as if it’s Christmas. “OMG THESE ARE ALL HERS? Um I want to I pick the um omee ok ok I pick the black Ferrari please” Gus grins and grabs the keys, they squeal out I hear the car leave so I change into my real night clothes. Capri’s and a tank hair knotted up in ball and toe socks. The beautiful lavender just isn’t the right kind of comfy. I dock my ipod and turn it on low. Sitting in the middle of my California king bed I let my he ad drop between my knees and let it out, this is the only time I don’t mind being alone, I can cry without worrying anyone will hear me. Frozen solid I can’t seem to move. Was that the door that just creaked open? Gesh I didn’t even lock up after Cam left. As I look up I see Cameron standing there looking very puzzled. “Lexi I forgot my wallet on the kitchen counter when I came back to get it I heard you crying what’s wrong? Are you hurt?” Anger ran through me I felt like the tips of my fingers could shoot lightening. “Why Cameron? Why couldn’t you just text me to bring it tomorrow, seriously it was that important? Look at me oh dear God you’re seeing me like this. Old torn clothes tear stained face” I drop my hands back down the broken girl has taken over. No more control, seductive girl. I hear his feet fading down the hall. Well that’s that he saw me looking a hot mess and he is gone for good. I throw myself back and bury my head in the pillow why am I doomed to a life of loneliness. Just then the bed gives way. I turn and see Cameron sitting on the side of the bed removing his shoes. Rubbing my eyes “what are you doing?” it comes out so weak and unlike me. “Lexi there is no way I can leave you like this. I told Gus I wasn’t leaving because you are upset and it’s not right for anyone to cry alone, I’m just going to sit here and hold you so you can cry it all out whatever it is and when you’re done you’ll see you’re not alone. And as far as your clothes go I think it’s the best I’ve seen you yet. You look normal and not intimidating, laid back, & I am betting this is you the real you!”